Drowning

Ever feel like you are drowning?

Right now is one of those times for me. In the scheme of things, it's not even that bad for us, we've definitely been through worse, much worse. I think I'm just overwhelmed. I keep waiting for something to happen to be that deep gulp of air, to be able to reach land and stop treading water even if it's just a sandbar.

I try to be positive - it takes every ounce of my energy, but I try. Lately even my optimism is clouded with well, clouds.

We will get through this, we will survive and I know we'll all be stronger/better/happier for it. I just really want that to start now. I want our hard work to pay off. I want to have things be easier for a while.

I want to reach the shore - even if that means we have mountains to climb.

I'm drowning.