She said uya!

:) Anna said "UYA buh bye!" :) Translated: Julia bye bye I cried! Anna finally said JULIA! We were leaving after dropping Julia off at preschool and anna waved goodbye and said it!

Soooo cute!

ahhhh - sisters!

I made my wish! :) 1111



oh yeah - WI today - 315 - down 3 more!!

Anna my somersaulter...

I just can't believe Anna can do actual somersaults already!!! We have it on video and everything! ;) It's sooo cute. I just wish I could get back to that time in my life where the most fun you could hve was to spin in a circle and get dizzy! That's her other favorite past time right now... well and dancing! ;)

So - one more week till my vacation!

We bought the coolest things for our dogs - these pop up (think like play-hut toys or those window shades) dog kennels! THey are going to be perfect for travel and in hotels - etc! They fold down into about a 8 inch diameter circle about an inch wide!

Two more weeks!

Two more weeks before my vacation! I just can't wait. Ok - I'm just here imagining myself relaxing on the beach - looking at those beautifully glorious mountains surrounding me in their familiarity. Ahhhh - I can feel that sand in my toes and that refreshingly COOLER sun beating down on me... ok - now the cold lake water... looking straight down into the bottom of this clear water ahhhhhhh.... Now I'm sitting by the campfire - smelling that familiar smoky air - looking at an endless dark sky sparkled by millions of bright stars.

2 more weeks! 2 more weeks! 2 more weeks!

So - my fat butt is actually shrinking...

I haven't really shared this in an open forum yet - but I'm a little over a month into Weight Watchers and so far without a whole lot of effort - I have lost 10 lbs. We're making some positive changes and I feel a hell of a lot better. As I've mentioned before - I'm fat. I'm not ok with being fat - but I am ok with me. So - I've reached a point in life where I'm working to lose a lot of things - my guilt, my blame, my clutter, my ass :). So - that's where I am right now.

So - I started with my fat butt being at 330lbs. I'm down to 320 from 6/1. I'm hoping to reach my 10% goal (297 lbs) by August 31.

A lot of my WW buddies have asked me why I feel that I need to do this now? Why is the time right? Why am I ready? What makes me think I can do this? So - my answer could be the easy obvious one - that I want to be better at what I do - I want to be a better mom - I want to play and have fun and not be winded all the time. Yeah - that's part of it, and probably a big part of it. More that that superficial answer though lies the real and harder to admit answers - I want to be a role model for my girls. I want them to be healthy and I want them to not have to constantly battle the ever present body image monster. It's always going to be there - people who will make them feel too tall, too fat, too short, too ugly, too TOO! I want them to know that food is fuel. I want them to be adventurous and active - not holding back from life.

Are there more reasons?
- I don't want to be one of those 35 year old heart attack victims
- I want to be able to buy clothes in the non fat person section
- I don't want to be diabetic
- I want to be able to be a swim instructor
- I want to see what I look like under this fat
- I want to climb mountains
- I want to be able to swim more than 4 laps without being winded
- Ummmm - I just am tired of being fat

I just love these days of Fla-Vor-Ice :)

Summer and the 4th of July will always remind me of Fla-Vor-Ice. I just those these popsicles. I love that the green ones always make me cough.