Tuesday, May 31, 2005

What I'm listening to...

Jack Johnson...

I didn't love this at first. I just couldn't find a reason to grab on and really WANT to listen to it. My DH loves it though so I kept trying.

So - where am I now on the Jack Johnson thing - well - I LIKE him. I still don't love his music, but I don't mind listening to it - and the other day I actually wanted to listen to it! So - I guess it's growing on me.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

It IS the happiest place on Earth...

I can't tell you enough about how much I love Disneyland. What a magical place. I'm 30 years old and still wish deep in my heart that the characters were "real" and that I could live there! I think I like it more than my daughters!

This 50th Anniversary celebration stuff is exceptional. I didn't think Disney could impress me more than they did in the past - but GEEZ was I wrong. Surprises on Jungle Cruise - the decorations around the park and the fantabulous fireworks spectacular... oh geez - it took my breath away. Disney sure does know how to jerk the tears and work the emotions.

Ohhh - and the new Buzz Lightyear ride - it was a blast!! Finally a ride that isn't just a tour through a black light heavy dark room with flourescent painted murals!

My parents were with us on this trip and I think they had a great time. Julia was thrilled to be with her Meemaw and Poppa - and she is still talking about the things she did with them. They even stayed an extra day!

The only negative in our trip was the Princess breakfast - it was TERRIBLE! We have been to other character meals and they were great (I highly recommend Ariel's Grotto) but this one was terrible. We were cramped, had to wait in super long lines, and the only character to ever come to our table in 2 hours was the Fairy Godmother. It was a wreck. Luckily the manager agreed it was terrible and refunded our meal.

So ---- I can't wait to go back, I hope we have enough $$ to go again in September before our AP's run out!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Demonic possession

I think my little girl (Julia) is possessed. I'm only slightly kidding here. She went from being a sweet little girl to a tantrum throwing, plate destroying, wall scribbling little devil. Truly - I can count on one hand the number of tantrums she has thrown in ther first 4 years of life - and I can count on the other hand how many she's thrown in the last 2 weeks!

I think she's tired, overwhelmed, spoiled and off a schedule... all things that two months ago would have been handled well - but the introduction to structure to her life in the form of preschool and rec activities took the flexibility out of her soul.

Ahhhhh - I'd tell you more - but frankly - after dealing with it all day - I'm just going to go get her in her bed and then bang my head against the wall for relaxation. Oh wait! i have to go pick up the almost one year old from on top of the dishwasher lid licking dirty spoons...

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Some of the things on my list of things I want to do before I die...

* Be a mom (done this - twice!!)
* Breastfeed a baby (yep - twice!)
* Teach my daughters to cook (sort of starting this... but I'm thinking long term)
* Publish a novel (it's written - now to phase 2)
* Spend some time in Italy
* Go to Grand Cayman
* Spend a week at DisneyWorld (AGAIN)
* Eat a meal with Shamu
* Swim with dolphins again
* Live in another country

Monday, May 16, 2005

Alright - I'm 30!!!! Happy Birthday to me!

So - I'm 30. Big whoop! :) As in my earlier post - (about turning 30) I'm really ok with it. Let me tell you what I learned today. I don't have good friends - I have GREAT friends. My good friend Julie who left me and moved to Georgia last year sent me a Sephora gift certificate and some super kind words. She knew I was looking to get some Demeter Summer Vacation perfume... lo and behold - I had a black Sephora box waiting for me tonight - with Summer Vacation in it... WTG Dan! And I still have the GC to spend!

Yesterday Dan and Julia (and Anna too) gave me the best present. I was on very strict orders not to leave the bedroom until noon. I could nap, watch tv, read, take a bath - but not to leave the room. At Noon they came in and gave me waffles they made for breakfast - then I was able to come out... they had been cleaning all morning. :) WTG Dan! We had a great dinner last night at Black Angus - everyone behaved. Anna slept through the night - and it wasn't even my birthday till today!

Today I opened my computer and Dan had left a birthday card on my keyboard -and then Julia decorated (mostly covered all the text and pictures with black marker) and signed a card for me all by herself.

So - tonight I spent my birthday at Julia's Soccer party at Peter Piper Pizza. it was fun and the kids were thrilled to get their medals! But - the absolute best part was - I opened the car door to get out and my good friend Tammy was standing there with a bouquet of flowers, a balloon - and 2 cakes - a cheesecake for me and a birthday cake (just in case!). :) How cute. Best of all - she had gone out and bought the fixins to make me Chicken Marsala for dinner so I didn't have to eat Peter Piper pizza for my dinner. After reading the recipe and starting - she realized she wouldn't have it done in time - but really - how amazing!! She knows my philosophy that everyone should have a cake and a balloon on their birthday. I was moved beyond words. We then went out to dinner (and Margaritas) with them after. Can you believe it!!!! How nice of her!

I had phone calls (it was ringing all day!!) and cards from all the people that are important to me... (THANKS LISA!). SO - what a night. I'll eat my ice cream cake followed with a cheesecake chaser... and go to bed feeling loved and content - and smelling like I'm on summer vacation!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Saturday, May 14, 2005

She shoots, she scores...

Julia scored her first goal today. After two seasons of soccer she managed to get the ball in the goal.

WHOO HOO! There is nothing better than seeing your kid proud of their acheivements.

I've heard all my life at what a shitty soccer player I was. I stood on teh field and wouldn't kick the ball because I didn't want to get my white shoes dirty.

So today - I applaud my daughter for getting in the game. For running hard after that ball, for fighting for the ball, for being happy with the game even when she couldn't get a goal. For being happy for her friends when they do score - and for being a good sport when she finally does.

WAY TO GO JULIA!!

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Good things come in 5's

May 5, 2000 was the day that I found out that I was pregnant with Julia. It was an amazing moment for me. Full of pure elation and utter terror. I can remember every moment of that morning with perfect clarity and other parts of that day are a blur.

As soon as I saw those two lines I knew my life was changed forever. People tell you that all the time as soon as they know you are planning on having kids... "you won't even remember what your life was like before you had kids." it's funny because you know it's true but you SOOOOOO don't KNOW. My friend laughed in my face when I told her I would have no problems taking Julia on the course with me golfing (I got a new set of golf clubs for my birthday 11 days after I found out I was pregnant) ... she laughed. It was a laugh of knowledge, pity at my naivete and mixed with a little bit of bittersweet...

How life is different - you are forced to think beyond yourself in the ultimate of unselfishness, you are entertained by sitting around watching this creation of yours pretty much do... well.. nothing. You are tired, but happy. You want everyone to see this amazing little thing you love with your whole heart but nervous of people spreading germs. Your heart is overpowered by this amazing emotion. There is a quote, "being a mom is the first time you wear your heart on the outside" and it's true. You have never been so full of love but so terrified of something happening.

I definitely get that little laugh when expectant parents talk about how they can continue life as it was before. Some parents can - but most are changed forever.

Now it's 5 years later and I have a beautiful, smart, hilarious, dramatic, sensitive little 4 year old girl. My friends were right - my life is different. Better but different.

So today - 05/05/05 is the 5 year anniversary since I found out I was pregnant. Good things do come in 5s.